November 18th - 23rd, 2010

Well, well, well! It has been 6 days since my last post...the time goes so fast!

There has been a lot going on so I will just start at Thursday....I went to Zumba again and totally loved it! I invited a few ladies out so I got to see some friends and workout with them....it was awesome and I am looking forward to it again this week!

On Saturday I went away with my mom and the baby to Sudbury which is the closest city to us where all the big name stores are.

The plan was to shop until we dropped or the baby could not handle it anymore, and we did just that !

I was able to find a great number of items that I was looking for and can not get here on the Island...gluten free wraps, bread and pancake mix were my most exciting buys.

So far I have tried the wraps and they are great tasting.

I did find the famous Ezekiel Bread & english muffins but was disappointed to find out that they were not glutton free...at least the ones I found were not glutton free.

Boo! I was so looking forward to trying it!

My mom bought me new workout pants and 2 new workout shirts, I was in need of both of these things...the best news is they were both size medium.

I treated myself to a new winter hat, scarf and mittens....in a beautiful blue....I love feeling free enough to buy colours and not be content to try and blend in to the background. Freedom!!!

I also had a drink from Starbucks for the FIRST time ever and I was NOT disappointed....Peppermint White Chocolate Mocha....I so enjoyed it and I did not even care what the calories were in it. It was a treat!!

I had an absolutely wonderful weekend away.

Sunday evening began the great battle of the thoughts and eating binge that I seem to be going through every three or so weeks.... It was different this time because I just had the 'I don't care' attitude...I ate what ever and when ever from Sunday evening through to Monday night at about 9pm....I have no idea how many calories I consumed and I don't even want to know...I ate just plain junk and I felt like crap the whole time. Blah!

By 9pm last night I was not in a good place but than I had a great talk with my husband who brought things into perspective... I was feeling like all my work was undone over the last 2 days and I must weigh 200 pounds again and would need my size 18 jeans back.

I love and thank God that he gave me this wonderful man that is truly my helpmate in all things. He can speak just the right words at the right time and it all comes together for me.

I was sharing with my hubby that I was thinking of just eating fruits and vegetables until Christmas to get rid of this weight and get over this terrible cycle I have been going through...not a logical thought process!

So hubby says to me...."What life is there in that? That just sounds like torture!"

He then proceeded to say "Just eat your calories each day and live life!"....then it clicked for me.

I just need to be consistent...have more good eating days than bad ones....this isn't new to me but for some reason I had lost this fact in my struggle lately. I started to come above water and could feel life in me again.

I woke up this morning in a fighting mood.....fighting against the enemy of my mind that is.

Today has been a great day for eating and I feel on top of things again.

To make things even better I stopped at a second hand store in a community close to us this afternoon and picked up a pair of jeans and a pair of dress pants...both in size 8...my thinking at the time was I will soon be wearing them.

I came home and tried them on....they both fit perfectly, right now!

I think I need to go through my closet and drawers and get rid of the size 12 pants that are in there.

So basically, life is busy, good and I am still in the game and fighting this battle against obesity for my sake and the sake of my family!!