Sunday, August 28, 2011

Staying Positive

In the recent months I have had a very negative focus about myself.
I fed the little evil thought life so well and now I am determined to starve it out and instead fill my thoughts and mind with positive food!

The 'food' I am consuming lately is scripture, inspiring blogs and positive self affirmation!

The battle can be so strong some days, that negative place became very strong. Some days or times of the day, it can still be overwhelming but I am so glad to God and for my husband..between the two of them they have kept me a float more than once this weekend!

I must go now but want to leave you with a powerful quote form Made to Crave....

Whether we're on the path toward victory or defeat is determined by the very next choice we make. Not the choices from yesterday. Not the choices five minutes ago. The next choice. Our very next choice. May it be that of an overcomer.
by Lysa Terkeurst

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Facing Facts

I am so glad that my mental space is in a good place right now because if it had not been than this morning would have been devastating to me.
Praise God for His focus!

I have thought that I needed to do my 'new before' measurements and weight and put it out there for the 'world' to see.

Here is my starting place.......August 25th, 2011

Weight 170lbs
Waist 37.75
Hips 40.5
Rib Cage 37
Bust 44.5
Upper Leg Left 23.5 Right 23.25
Upper Arm Left 13.75 Right 13.5

I am totally good with these measurements and weight even though all are much higher than where I was at.
It is actually a relief to have written these down as a starting point as of today!
No secrets!!!

My eating has been right on and I know the scale will go down steadily as I continue to focus on good, life giving choices regarding food.

More important to me right now is not the number on the scale or the size of my clothes (although seeing a smaller number will be great) but having my focus on the right things.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Following the Lead

What's up with Blogger??
Some how my background and things were all messed up! Oh, well I like to change the look from time to time anyway.

The new blog depicts how I am feeling about living life and feeling healthy!
Alive, free and full of hope!!!

A rainbow represents a promise from God.
He has promised me that He will always be with me and hold me my strength when I think I can't do this anymore.
God has been speaking to my heart about so many things regarding my eating habits, body weight and the tendency to revert back to over eating.
Heart issues have been revealed to me but there is just no way to describe it to anyone because I am still trying to process it all.

The one thing that I can share and that I know and understand is that freedom is a choice...daily, hourly I have to choose to walk in the freedom from addiction or I can allow myself to be controlled by my impulses, lusts and the father of lies.
My freedom has been given to me, I received it years ago!

"Victory is possible, not by figuring out how to make this an easy process, but by choosing~ over and over again~ the absolute power available through God's truth." By Lysa Terkeurst

I am just finishing reading 'Made to Crave' by Lysa Terkeurst.
This is an awesome book, I have learned a lot from it.

Until next time, some of the freedom choices I have made since my last post;
  • To eat healthy, clean foods for many days in a row.
  • To move my body on a regular basis again.
  • To offer my day to the Lord and allow Him to minister to me.
  • To test my thoughts about myself and believe the ones that bring life and speaks truth.
  • Take a Pro-biotic, Digestive Enzyme and daily vitamin.
  • Read God's word and allow it to change me.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011


I wanted to let you all know that I am back!!!!!
That dark cloud has lifted and I feel in control, Praise be to God!

After my last post I have been doing some deep self examining...I have had to really look hard at why I need to be healthy.

The top reasons.....
  • I am a temple of the Holy Spirit!
  • I am made for more than the crazy cycles that I have went through for years....I am WORTH it!
  • My children deserve to have a happy, healthy mom.

I have come to realize that living a healthy lifestyle, truly is a battle both physically and spiritually and it is not going away so I might as well stand strong and face the battle daily.

For some their battle is with alcohol, drugs, and/or sex...whatever their weakness is...mine is food, so until I am strong enough to be able to eat just one piece of cake (if that day ever comes!) than I am going to choose to not have ANY! What life is there in cake? There is done for me!

Can you imagine an alcoholic saying that they will just go to this one party and have a few drinks!?!?!?! and then tomorrow will stop again...would that be easy???? I do not think it would, in fact I know it is impossible!!!!

It has been a week of making the choice to live life fully!
To take my thoughts captive and test them to see if they are life giving!

I still have hurdles to face but I am ready!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Missing In Action

If you see this woman, please tell her to come home!
I MISS her....................

Doesn't she look happy, healthy and fit?!?!?!?

Seriously, this photo was taken in November 2010...I was at my lowest weight of 146lbs.
Now, I am scared to step on the scale.............the last time I was brave enough I was weighing in at 171lbs..............yuck!!!
I do not know what it is going to take to get back my gusto!!
I am working my way through a great book that is helping me to gain back my positive thoughts, truthfully I have been so sad and negative about myself the last 2-3 months.
I worked hard to get into shape and felt so great about what I had accomplished and to see now how EASY it is to fall into the old me patterns....that is sad!
I am dealing with a few health issues and hopefully they will be straightened out soon so that there can be one less reason to be on this bad road.