Monday, January 3, 2011


I feel like crap today...mentally to start off with, then it led to overeating and now finally the self loathing has kicked into full gear!

I want to see myself as my Heavenly Father does....I think this is a area that needs to be worked on for me RIGHT at this moment.

I have an ideal image in my head of what I need to look like, how I need to act and what I need to weigh! but I have never surrendered these areas to the Lord so He can speak into them!

Climbing my way up...yes I will!
Not going to focus on the land in which I need to cover still but rather I am going to focus on the freedom I have already obtained!
I see the horizon even though I am still climbing out of the feels like such a dark and lonely place...

I need to reach for Father's hand and allow Him to lead me up and out of this darkness!
More freedom at the top!


  1. I will pray for you, for those valleys are a hard place to be in.
    This is a favorite, encouraging verse of mine:

    "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Ps. 37:4

  2. I would also love to see myself as Heavenly Father does! Wow, wouldn't that give us the perspective we need? I'm sorry that your day has been crummy - I'd love to give you a hug if I was there. I know you'll pull out of this and feel that warm sun again! It seems like whenever we make our convictions know, that little tyrant devil does everything to thwart us. But that is only temporary as we have the power of the Almighty backing us up. Hang in there... you are strong and so worth it! :) Blessings your way...


  3. Leah; Is there a way I can contact you??? I still can't post a comment on your blog!!!

  4. Sorry you are having a tough time. I hate days like that. Hang in there, pray, and try to focus on the good things you have done for yourself!! Getting healthy is amazing and you have done so well. Such an inspiration to me.



  5. so sorry Christine
    those days can be tough
    you must believe that you are worth it sister..your food does not define who you were awesomely made, you are the apple of your Fathers eye, your are more beautiful then any jewel of the should be so proud of yourself!
    sending you love and understanding!

    love and light

  6. Hugs!

    "If I could look through Your eyes, I'd see there's no way to impress You and I wouldn't even try. I'd stop trying to prove I'm worthy, and I'd take off the disguise, if I could look through Your eyes.

    And I would see that I'm precious, and I would know that I am prized. I'd see Your love, never changes, if I could look through Your eyes. Lord, help me look through Your eyes."

  7. Christine,
    I don't know why your comments aren't making it. I do blog approval first, but I don't know what to tell you.

    If you want to try and comment again with your email address I won't publish it, but I'll email you.

  8. I'm sorry you are feeling down. I am glad you appreciate the need to recognize Heavenly Father's love for you and what he sees you can be. I know as we try to make His purpose and focus ours, we can do anything with his help and our effort together. You can do it!