After I had great time of reflection yesterday morning my husband mentioned having a big brunch of bacon, eggs, beans, hash browns and toast. I usually would say okay I will help prepare but then I would eat my normal breakfast of oatmeal or cold cereal.
Instead I thought I would join the family....this was a mistake!
I don't even like bacon or hash browns but I ate them anyway and I ended up eating way more calories than I needed or wanted.
After eating that stuff for brunch I felt like I was watching someone elses life...like in a movie! I went from full to stuffed by eating too many Peanut Butter cookies and Hot Chocolate.
Basically I binged for the rest of the day with the all or nothing attitude. I blew it so why not go all out. This binge was NOTHING like how I use to eat but I still was displeased with my actions!
It seems like I can't accept the fact that I am a SUCCESS story ( I am not at my goal yet but close) and when ever I spend any time dwelling on how well I have done, I lose control! This is something I am going to be spending time in prayer about...obviously I need to deal with these emotions and stay in the game of life at all times.
Today I have be
en back on track.....here are my eats.
en back on track.....here are my eats.Breakfast was a bowl of Barbara's Shredded Oats, 1 cup of fresh strawberries and 3/4 milk. This is a new cereal to me and it tasted great...a bit of a change in my normal but still a healthy choice.
For morning snack I had a big, crisp apple and 11 almonds.
Lunch was a Green Smoothie consisting of 3 handfuls of spinach, a frozen banana, 2 tbsp. ground flaxmeal, 1 tbsp. natural peanut butter and 1 cup of almond breeze. Below is a picture of my little guy enjoying some of my lunch, he loves smoothies and I can never drink one alone!
Afternoon boost was more berries with yogurt and granola. This always keeps me going until supper.
Tonight will be Taco Salad leftovers for me, definitely one of my favorites.
Staying in the game!!! and being an active player!!!!
Okay... who wouldn't eat a smoothie with that face? Cutie! I LOVE how you just bounced back from your off day! Seriously, why dwell on a some bad choices when you have TONS of good choices you've made. Your menu sounds so yummy too. Good job Christine... this is what it's all about!
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I totally understand this struggle. It's like we think we don't deserve it - the success. Like we doubt we can live up to keeping our weight off. I think coming to grips with that and how to deal with it is key to maintaining. Tomorrow is a new day - full of grace! :)
ReplyDeleteThank goodness you fell off the wagon, it was getting annoying how great you were doing! LOL , just joking=)
ReplyDeletebut the bacon and eggs, were they not good to have every once in a while, a little bit? i never eat bacon unless out at a brunch, and i totally love it.
Congrats on pushing past it! You must feel like a million bucks.
ReplyDeleteI get this... I totally get it too!
ReplyDeleteIt's such a mental game isn't it? If the mind isn't in the game, we will self sabotage the whole thing! Oh boy.. I so so get it!
I heard it once said from a food addiction recovery counselor that, "When you are in recovery, you never take a vacation off your plan."
This is something that I had heard, BUT my little brain said.. no no.. you can take a vacation while you are ON vacation. Ack!
So so great that you are back inline, and moving forward into freedom, Christine!! This is the definition of TRUE success.. it's not about how many times you fall, it's about how many times you get back up again! And you are living proof of that! YES!!
High five, sista!