Sugar Shock Day 4 (Re-evaluating)

Yesterday and today I have been doing a lot of thinking!

In my adult life I have spent periods of time fasting from food in order to lose weight.
Ouch!! that was hard to admit!
Whenever I was dieting and had a hard spell were I was resorting back to old, bad eating habits I would convince myself that the only to break this cycle was to STOP eating. It never worked obviously because throughout the time I was not eating I would focus on ALL the STUFF I was going to eat as soon as I could. My method always backfired...as it should. So this time around I decided from the beginning that I was not going to do this because I know it is a wrong strategy...plus I am nursing and can't do this and keep up my milk supply.

I had successfully lost 54lbs and got to my first goal of 155lbs using the method of eating clean and exercising. I incorporated into my eating plan treats/desserts in moderation and on planned dates. THIS HAS WORKED FOR ME!!!!

Since reaching 155lbs I have been struggling with my thoughts constantly. I have decided I want to lose another 15- 25 pounds now but my struggle is I want it done now too.

This brings me to my motives for eliminating carbs from the foods I can eat. I was looking for a quick way to lose weight and it is working. I was down 3 lbs this week bringing me to 152lbs. I have not been this light and healthy since just after the birth of my eldest child 11 years ago! I could not be happier about this! but I know my heart and the same reason I fasted to lose weight in the past is the same reasons I choose this method at this point in my weight loss journey!

I hope I have not turned you all off with this post but it is time to be honest with you and myself. I don't want to hide behind ANYTHING!!!

My head has been aching for a long time now and by accident, I had to eat a half a whole wheat bun yesterday while out of the house because I had no other choices available, I discovered by adding that carb into my system my headache went away in less then 1 hour. As soon as I got home I resumed my eating plan of no carbs....by midnight I was wake with a headache again and it is still here!
I think my body is telling me something...don't you!?!?!?

I refuse to take pain medication unless I am fevered because I am still nursing...when I get headaches they are telling me something is wrong with my body and I need to figure out what it is. Sometimes it is I need extra sleep...this is not the case now, sometimes I am stressed out about a decision....not anything happening there, or I may need a chiropractor adjustment....this to is not the case. The only reason I can come up with is the change in diet.

So after much thinking I have decided that I need to resume eating clean (with my next planned dessert on Thanksgiving) like I have been doing for the last almost 10 months and let the weight come off at the rate in which it is going to. I still have not accepted the fact that it will probably be SLOW but I have support from fellow bloggers, family and friends and I know all of you will help keep my focus on the goal through the this process.
I was really looking forward to doing this Sugar Shock Challenge with Amy because of the accountability but I can't and I know the understanding is there.

Sorry this is so long and alot of rambling but there it is......my heart!