Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Missing In Action

If you see this woman, please tell her to come home!
I MISS her....................

Doesn't she look happy, healthy and fit?!?!?!?

Seriously, this photo was taken in November 2010...I was at my lowest weight of 146lbs.
Now, I am scared to step on the scale.............the last time I was brave enough I was weighing in at 171lbs..............yuck!!!
I do not know what it is going to take to get back my gusto!!
I am working my way through a great book that is helping me to gain back my positive thoughts, truthfully I have been so sad and negative about myself the last 2-3 months.
I worked hard to get into shape and felt so great about what I had accomplished and to see now how EASY it is to fall into the old me patterns....that is sad!
I am dealing with a few health issues and hopefully they will be straightened out soon so that there can be one less reason to be on this bad road.


4 comments:

  1. that woman is still there Christine, she truly is
    whenever i have "fallen away" from whatever is good for me, I have had to learn to dust off, forgive myself, and learn what my vulnerabilities are...bottom line, take better, MUCH better care of myself and my needs
    I want my children to do the same for themselves, boundaries, self love and ll that, so I have to mirror that, even when I make a mistake I am still loveable....even if you gained 100lbs, you are sitll loveable, you are still worthy, you are still precious
    these are the truths to hold on to
    and you will find that woman again
    you proved you can do it once, you can go back to that place
    be kind to you Christine

    love and light

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  2. Hang in there and keep fighting! One day at a time. Try not to be too hard on yourself. You have infinite worth girl!!

    ~Margene

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  3. So many end up losing themselves when on this journey...but do manage to find themselves again.
    I think this is what drives me so much, I fear falling back as I see how easily it can happen and will never allow myself to think...It will never happen to me...
    It could...and knowing that is what pushes me daily.
    I do hope you find yourself and you worth finding and taking good care of.

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  4. Alot of us are going through this very thing, I'm not exactly sure why. I suspect that it's just part of the journey. It's not always easy, if it were we'd all be fit and healthy. I think the key is to hang in there and never give up!!!

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