That dark cloud has lifted and I feel in control, Praise be to God!
After my last post I have been doing some deep self examining...I have had to really look hard at why I need to be healthy.
The top reasons.....
- I am a temple of the Holy Spirit!
- I am made for more than the crazy cycles that I have went through for years....I am WORTH it!
- My children deserve to have a happy, healthy mom.
I have come to realize that living a healthy lifestyle, truly is a battle both physically and spiritually and it is not going away so I might as well stand strong and face the battle daily.
For some their battle is with alcohol, drugs, and/or sex...whatever their weakness is...mine is food, so until I am strong enough to be able to eat just one piece of cake (if that day ever comes!) than I am going to choose to not have ANY! What life is there in cake? There is done for me!
Can you imagine an alcoholic saying that they will just go to this one party and have a few drinks!?!?!?! and then tomorrow will stop again...would that be easy???? I do not think it would, in fact I know it is impossible!!!!
It has been a week of making the choice to live life fully!
To take my thoughts captive and test them to see if they are life giving!
I still have hurdles to face but I am ready!