This is a hard post to write tonight because I have to be truthfully honest and vulnerable.
I have been searching for the last 5 months for the perfect program, key, solution, whatever you want to call it. I wanted success and didn't want to work to achieve it. I thought if I could just find the right way to eat and follow a program to the 't' I would be happy, healthy and trim! but instead of finding the perfect program I have done some soul searching and come to realize there is not a perfect program. What may be perfect for you may not be for me and so on. This is basic stuff here, no great revelation but it has been life changing for me this last week or so.
I started out in the fall just trying to eat healthy, I felt good and content!
Late December and early January I tried eating plant based, I felt amazing but found it SO hard to stick to it 100% of the time and the perfectionist in me would sabotage myself if I veered from the course at all. In came the self condemning thoughts, feelings and actions that I have had to deal with ALL my life! It is a brutal cycle that I am determined to overcome, I know my freedom to enjoy life and all it has to offer is wrapped up in this so I look forward to facing this head on.
I sit here now in February trying to find the BALANCE in my life and eating!
Hence the reason for opening back up this blog and getting out of the extremist mode...I know I can and will do this and I want to thank all of you who have prayed, sent messages and have been there rooting for me while I have been in the 'desert' so to speak!
My focus and plan is to eat clean, healthy foods with a majority of my intake being plant based.
I will also be increasing my exercise to hopefully at least 4 days a week.
In the last 6 weeks even though it has been a real time of reflection and dealings for me I have managed to lose 8lbs which is AWESOME and a really great start!
Welcome back! I know you'll find your place in the healthy food world soon. You know you've done it before and rocked it, you just need to get back there again.
ReplyDelete8lbs in 6 weeks!!! That is FANTASTIC!!! Way to go! :) We are so close in our goal weights, friend!! We can do this!!!! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for the compliment and for stopping by. You too, my friend, have an amazing story because you keep coming back and finding what works for you.
ReplyDeleteWhen it would be so easy to quit because your "plan" may not look like someone else's you don't. You find what works for you and you do that.
I will keep you in my prayers as I understand the perfectionist struggle. And random funny thought...Here I thought my mom had it all together when she was my age..boy was I wrong! We sure do keep learning don't we?
I'm so glad you're blogging again and I'll be checking in. Take care!
Thank you for the compliment and for stopping by. You too, my friend, have an amazing story because you keep coming back and finding what works for you.
ReplyDeleteWhen it would be so easy to quit because your "plan" may not look like someone else's you don't. You find what works for you and you do that.
I will keep you in my prayers as I understand the perfectionist struggle. And random funny thought...Here I thought my mom had it all together when she was my age..boy was I wrong! We sure do keep learning don't we?
I'm so glad you're blogging again and I'll be checking in. Take care!